RESTLESS NIGHTS

RESTLESS NIGHTS

29/05/2021 Slået fra Af Jari Dolberg
Late at night when I’ve gone to bed
I curse the night with harsh profanity
just hoping for some light to appear
in those long nightmarish hours
when the sun no longer blinds
my childhood memory
 
I use up all remaining energy
to keep my self awake afraid
of what fearceful history
my mind will reveal
I fight the heavy sleep and
in the end I’m loosing the battle
 
It feels like walking on a
thin slippery line where
sanity and life is on one side
and insanity and  my coming
death is on the other side
depriving me of much needed rest
 
The anxiety takes over and I
find my self covered in sweat
crying silently trying not to wake
up the rest of my sleeping house
but it feels like sweat and tears are
mocking my sleepless desperation
 
When I wake up in the early hours
and the Sun has won its fight against
the darkness I think to myself
is this struggle worth fighting
when the neighbors still haven’t
heard the boy crying next door
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